Wednesday, April 29

Tell me why, Everything turned around; Packing up, Shaking up's all you wanna do. If I could Baby I'd give you my world. Open up, Everything's waiting for you:

Well when I went in to see Deano this morning the last catheter had been removed from his head. Now I know overall this sounds really great. If I could only express the fear I felt when I learned that in the absence of the catheter his ICP'S (Inner Cranial Pressure) can no longer be monitored. This is why I stared at the monitor so I could tell if he was bothered or relaxed. I can no longer tell that by looking at the monitor. Good news yes; scary, hell yes. The decision to remove is because of the risk of infection and they had not had to drain for over a 24 hr period.

He is now on only one antibiotic (couldn't tell you which one) and the morphine is no longer free flowin. Ohhh, so sorry for you Deano (that was meant to be funny). Deano has shared stories about morphine with me from his knee operations.

The staff is still trying to control his temperature. It has been higher than they would like for the past few days. From the looks of it, it is not being caused by infection. Guess what they are giving him for that: Yesterday Tylenol and today Ibuprofen (how normal does that seem?) Deano is covered with a cooling blanket and ice packs under both arms.

Deano's eye seemed to pop open (not by his doing) much more yesterday than today (lyrics to a song). Today it seemed like he was really sleeping. And do you know he had the nerve to yawn and more than once. My god Deano are you still sleepy????????(Ha, ha, ha). Shit I got to find something to laugh about these days cause if I don't then the water works get turned on (booo, hoo).

Now get ready here is the really big one: The Dr.'s hope to have the ventilator turned down from SIMV-14 to SIMV-2 by the end of the day. Now the SIMV is what has been doing the breathing for Deano. Good news, huh... Shit but again scary as hell...

I just don't know how to explain why this is so scary. With everything coming off and the prospects of Deano waking up; it seems I can no longer fool myself that tomorrow I will wake up and everything (or Deano) will be back to normal (though our lives will never be the same). What I mean by normal is that Dean will wake up next to me and he will walk and talk and continue to analyze every thing to death and drive me insane. That is what I am hoping for and the scary thing is I don't think that it is going to go down exactly that way.

So I don't think I am crazy, not yet anyway, just terrified of what may lie ahead for the California Namba's.

You can go your own way, Go your own way (And I wish (pray) you would stay)..........

P.S. I see that Roger is a follower of this blog. Are you a friend from work because I don't recall that we have met.

P.S.S. So sad to say the Bulls did not prevail over the Suns last night. Even so the game sure was exciting. We were on our feet and everything. With less than 2 minutes to go the score was tied at 12. Riley scored 5 points this game and I must say a little disappointed. He doesn't recall the scores he just knows this was the 4th game in a row without a victory. I tried to explain it takes a team awhile to develop there mojo and that Coach Andrew really needs to work on their passing game. One final game next Tuesday before playoffs.

P.S.S.S. Deano 49th birthday tomorrow. Now wouldn't you much rather celebrate with Marguerita's (okay that's for me). How about a couple of brewskies for youskie. I'll put them on ice and have them waiting when you get home. Now that certainly is a new concept.