If you ask me to, I just might change my life:
It has been a week, or has it been years, and I am told the road ahead to recovery is long. Hmm, and apparently not a straight line. Shit, why didn't someone, anyone, tell me there were twists and turns. Or maybe someone did and I wasn't listening. (Far be it from me.) Hmmmm??? So at this time I question, "am I cut out for the road ahead?" filled with its twists and turns and not the straight line that I so often struggled with. I do, after all, get car sick.
At times I am filled with hope and then at times I feel as though the air is being sucked from not only my lungs but from my whole being. At what point in this journey do I begin to catch my breath and know that the next breath will come.
Oh wait, that's right, not about me and on the other hand still waiting to hear from Deano. We are told today that the Dr.s' will keep him in this deep dreaming state for another week. Talk about having the air sucked out, I was just waiting for this Monday to come thinking they would pull back. We have to do what is best for Dean and at this point dreaming is best.
Sweet dreams, honey. And I did feel you hold my hand last night and I am still here.
P.S. Thank you to Carli Vandervort for the arrangements of fruits and to Paul Garcia and friends at J.T. Thorpe & Sons, Inc. for the Balloons and to all those who continue to pray for us and hold us in your embrace and for all the beautiful cards and words of encouragement.
If you ask me to..................
3 comments:
Teri - This blog is a tremendous blessing for all of us that can't be with you as we await the updates on Dean. It is wonderful to read the comments from others and to see how much love and support is flowing your way. I know you are drawing strength from that. Dean is never far from our thoughts and is certainly in our prayers as are you and Riley. Hang in there....a new dawn is on the horizon.
Kim and Hillary
Hang in there Teri! The old saying " the darkest hour is just before the dawn" has true and new meaning for you now. That foggyness and that numbness that overtakes you is a good thing sometimes. It's your mind and heart taking a break from your pain and the pain you feel for Dean. It's not a bad thing! share your hurt with those around you. Pain shared is pain lessened.
love shared is love multiplied. We are all with you. Some in person. Some in spirit. some in prayer but, we're with you.
Ricky " i had nilla wafers and columbian blend at starbucks" Elliott
Hi Teri, this is a friend from work. I met Dean several years ago and have worked with him occasionally. When we worked in the same building he would come into the office to talk to my coworker and I was always impressed by his smiling good nature. He talked about you and your son often and fondly. He is a very sharp person at work and very conscientious. I pray that God gives you both courage and strength. Sending hope and peace your way - VC
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