Saturday, May 2

But if you need me, show me that you love me. And when I'm feeling down, wearing a frown, You be there when I look around:

Thank you Bimbi from New York, for the interesting information about Ambien and coma patients. I read the articles and discussed with the Dr. this morning. Dr. Vesspa was not in favor of the use of Ambien for Deano and instead has perscribed Provigil for him. This is a drug used for patience in deep sleeps and would be similar to a very strong dose of caffine. We should probably just give him the Starbucks coffee(after all we do need to support the stock value of Starbucks).

Well today we have another wonderful and caring Nurse, Gabriella. Not like yesterday. The only nurse that May and I have not cared for. Her name was Mensi and she was just not as attentive as what we are used to.

Garbriella printed out some information on websites for information on rehab.

The plan is to have Dean on the trace collar for 60 minutes 3 times a day. The first 60 minute session was at 11:30 am today and we stayed to make sure it came off after (oops double prep again, too bad too sad) the 60 minutes was over. According to Meredith, the respiratory specialist he handled this 60 minutes quite well. She will be able to confirm that after she reviews the results of the blood gas test.

Also, today they want to sit him up in a special chair. Of course that terrifies me because I fear unmonitored he may fall. So May and I will be here until they put him in the chair to sit with him, make sure he does not fall and to make sure after 2 hours is up he is placed back in bed.

Dean's eye's are open more frequently and Gabriella said there is definately alot of communication going on in the eyes. However, he is still not following any commands. Mom and Carlos say he looks really pissed off. Quite frankly that is the emotion I am getting when I look into his eyes. Bring it on Baby!!!!

Dean is currently being given antibiotics for Klebsiella (fancy name). Doesn't sound so good when I read about it on the internet. So I will have to keep praying for the best.

We place so much trust in the care and information we receive from the Dr.'s and hospital staff. I sometimes feel guilty because I feel like I should know more about what is happening with Deano and then when I investigate all the information could drive a person crazy with concern.

Again today I presented Dr. Vesspa with the question (now I have been told and I have learned, the hard way, I might add, never ask a question where you don't want to know the answer): "Is this as good as it gets for Deano?"

Thank you Dr. Vesspa for your honesty. He said he believed that Deano could in fact make a recovery which would include him talking and walking. He said he probably would never work again because he will probably have trouble concentrating (Dean said he didn't mind being Mr. Mom) and that he may have some issues with emotions. Oh, maybe that anger I see in his eyes is something.

And I am still here.

Just gimme some kind of sign........................